Sigh.

Anyway, I think I am becoming the numb, detached creature I always wanted to be.

I don't cry as much anymore. I cried on Saturday night, but I was drunk.

Today I wanted to cry, I felt it in me somewhere but it wasn't. I couldn't. So I didn't.

But I am detaching. Not just from who I wanted to in the first place, but it seems from everyone.

All or nothing.

All or nothing.

I guess I've never really done anything halfway.