So despite how he feels about me and how I feel about him, it's really all about how he feels about himself. So it's over. I'm extremely upset. It's all very frustrating because he likes me, he doesn't want to break up with me, he thinks I was the perfect girlfriend, but he hated himself because of Ryan and felt guilty all the time. I suppose all of you will say, it's for the best then, what an asshole, screw him, but it's not that easy at all.

I am so tired of this shit, really. I've had it, I'm sick of hurting. Anyway. That's enough boohooing. I'm going to hermit away for a little bit.