Jackrabbit has informed me that he is going to block my emails.

Wow, this is hurting more than I thought it would, and less that it would have a long time ago.

I am past wanting to be with him. I've been past that for a while. But he says that he doesn't want to know me.

Just when I finally have come to a place where I don't long for him, and when I don't feel like my life is mess because of him, now he no longer wants to try. I had the idea that maybe one day soon, after we've both dealt with being angry with one another, we can try again, but I guess that's it. It's just totally gone.

I don't regret my decision, but I do regret that things went the way they did. It's a fucking brutal shame. I could have been less explosive, he could have been all kinds of other things, but neither of us were.

And now we've lost each other. Fucking sucks. Fucking sucks.

I almost had his baby, and I would have had he chose us. And now we are this. Fuck.

Goodbye Jackrabbit, it's the end of an era. There's still love should you come to forgive me.