Every horoscope I've read about this year for geminis has signalled SIGNIFICANT change in my life. Major overhaul. Perhaps it's started and I didn't even know.

I used to not care about being killed. I think I've said this before, but I used to be suicidal in a roundabout way in that I would never ACTUALLY kill myself, that just wouldn't happen. But if I were accidentally killed, I wouldn't be too disappointed. Like a drive by shooting (yeah, in Vancouver?? come on...) or if I was hit by a bus or an anvil fell on my head etc, well, I wouldn't be too disappointed. But now, dying just might crush me. I would have all this regret.

Maybe that's one of the things that spurred me to give up being a chickenshit fear based lifeform and take a chance. Because I know that if I died right now, I would miss him the most (after my little brother) and regret not trying to make it work so much that maybe I'd haunt the spot I died in forever, wailing and throwing stuff.

Poltergeistpickle.