Well, last night was craziness. It was Helen's birthday party and we had a little wine and cheese party. Wowee. It ended up being a raucus mess at about 4am. I crawled into bed and hid.

But I've made a few new friends and I'm quite happy about that. Chris and Nonie, who are soon to be married at the beginning of July are lovely. He's a filmmaker and artist, she's a biologist and technical writer. They're both brilliant and lovely. I was saying I needed to meet new people and inject a little freshness into my life. So I'm mighty pleased about this.

Chris is also my newest fan. He's going to cast me in all his projects.

I'm going through such a transitional phase in my life right now. It's tough to know which end is up. One minute I'm confused and crying and acting stupid and feeling like a 13 year old wanting something she can't have and having a tantrum over it. The next minute, I'm breathing and understanding and feeling ok about everything and I know how to be patient.

Patientia. My latest obsession. It is my quest now to learn patience. I have never been a patient person. I want everything and I want it now and why can't I have it now when I can see that it would work?

Patientia. I can be that person. I can wait. Life IS long, and there's lots of time. If I die tomorrow, that's ok. I haven't lost because I'll have known the worth of something.

I want to be a patient person NOW NOW NOW!

Yep.