Comments:

Fffffffff - 2003-09-24 19:32:59
Perhaps JuNi MooN is right. Perhaps JR is a total jerk that you should be rid of. Maybe she's met him and knows him well. I guess it's tough to know what he's "really" like based on your entries alone. I suppose I was just looking on the bright side of things and hoping for the best.
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Arianna - 2003-09-24 19:45:52
I know that I don't portray a completely accurate description of people, it is my diary and I write what I'm feeling, and it's not meant to be a character development tool for anyone but me. People don't see what JR is like every day obviously and can't. So keep in mind that *I* know the good things and I've experienced them myself and they are the reason that I didn't get rid of him a long time ago. It's only a diary and it doesn't define a person. And simply that.
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Arianna - 2003-09-24 19:53:27
g2g, Fffffff
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infrequency - 2003-09-24 22:31:47
i'm just a guy and usually we band together. but it soundsd like this guy is doing a science project on jerking you around.
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JuNi MooN - 2003-09-25 07:20:20
ANYONE who rejects another person over their physical appearance not being up to their expectations, is a manipulator and an ass... NO relationship should be based on, "If you do this or that, I just may love you..." The true joy of real love is being your crazy, messy, gleeful odd or not odd you, and that person loving you for it...and you being able to love them as they are as well. That, my dear Arianna, is what you are searching for. By settling for less (JR), you are keeping yourself from finding it.
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Arianna - 2003-09-25 19:55:20
In all defence, he has tried to uphold the ideal that I shouldn't have to change for someone. I've heard him say this on several occasions. Though it was apparent that if I had been these things, our situation would have been different. He said something nasty, then he apologized, but the fact is, the thought was there to begin with, it had to come from some truth somewhere.
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JuNi - 2003-09-26 13:29:35
sorry girl, but this sounds like you are grasping at straws. it's just not a good fit, and it's not working...maybe it's his indifference that intrigues you, but this is not the way to find a long, satisfying relationship. it sounds like he is more accepting to the fact that you should probably just be friends and that you are not compatible as lovers for the long haul. I know this is hard, but denial of truth only makes the torture last longer and reality more painful. i hope this helps you arianna...
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