"how come you are all red?" I said "I don't know, I usually am" (cause my face will flush for no reason, I am often too hot or just having that rosy glow thing going on in my face). So he said "oh I thought it was because of me" and I said, rather shortly now that I think of it "no". He got all jittery, I REALLY started to turn red and said "NOW I'm red because of you, you're making me MORE red" and he said "I've just made a total ass of myself" and became very weird and jerky, and walked out the door emitting a high pitched nervous laugh.

EEEEEEEEK. That was the most awkward moment.

As I said the other day, I didn't get the Weight Watchers commercial. I had an audition for a used car company commercial yesterday. I don't know what the company name is. I thought it was Texan or Dexan or something like that, but I got to the audition and the information sheet ACTUALLY said "Used Car Commercial". HA. I didn't have any sides, they just wanted me to talk about myself a little bit. AGAIN with that stuff. Well, I hope that I was full of life and personality. I hope they liked me because, dammit, as I say every day in my diary, I NEED THE MONEY.

I actually decided to come back to work at the Stanley Theatre. I've been on leave for about 3 months and I really don't want to work there anymore, but again, I NEED THE MONEY. I am really busting my ass to start a savings account, AND we are going to Mexico in October, and I really don't want that to break me.

I'm suddenly craving raisin toast with pounds of butter mmmm.

"I'm losing my favorite game, you're losing your mind again."